Confessions of a Hypocrite

Hi, my name is Alex and I’m a hypocrite, I have abstained from my hypocrisy for 2 hours and 22 minutes. I confess to the very deeds that I have accused many of doing to me. I have been a Pharisee, the worst of them all. Questioning my own worth, denying that I was loveable, or good enough, crying out “sinner” and “crucify him.” All the while it was me standing there receiving the judgment of which I had been the perpetrator. The judgment that was much worse than what I received from the others in my life who I felt taught me these lessons. I have been my own worst enemy. I have not loved myself with my whole heart or loved my neighbors as myself, because the truth is, how could I? I haven’t truly loved myself, how could I possibly love my neighbor? I end up resenting them, that they want my love, that I’m supposed to give my love so freely. Who ever gave me love so freely? Not me, that’s for certain.

I have an addiction. I have taken my family’s place as the creator of my own hell. I didn’t get “sent” to hell because of the things about me that they thought were worthy of hell, I sent myself there! I made my life a living hell. A self-fulfilling prophecy, full of fire and brimstone and destruction, by the ways in which I tore myself down, belittled myself, spoke poorly of myself or outright hated myself. So today, I lay down my gavel, my judges robe, my title as head Pharisee, and I welcome myself home. Back into the loving arms of Source, of the Divine, from the very energy I was created from. Because the truth is, no one has caused me as much pain as I have caused myself.

So today, I wish upon all those who I have called a hypocrite, and to my own self, true healing from this dis-ease of self-loathing and shame. I commit to spending my days learning to love and accept myself right where I am and then to do unto others as I have done to myself.

Broken but beautiful, flawed yet somehow perfect, willing to learn from my mistakes, knowing the past brought me right where I’m supposed to be. Then turning fear into faith, acknowledging I have a problem, I’m an addict, but I do the best that I can, and that in truth, is good enough. My name is Alex and I’m a recovering hypocrite. This is day one.

See Part 1: From Accusation to Empathy

Alex picked “Sosideshotul Seer” for his title because at the center of his work what he does is “see” people at their core, soul-self. His intention is to demonstrate that vision to the client and help them recognize their ability to manifest healing, and to access their own wisdom. Sessions with Alex can encompass a multitude of modalities depending on what each person’s needs are. Some sessions might be focused more on intuitive readings and channeling information directly from Spirit, (which may include work with crystals, color, and Tarot cards.) Other sessions may focus more on shamanic journeying. The journeys begin and end with drumming, which help him enter an altered state of consciousness to access other realms and facilitate the session. He then acts as an intermediary between the human world and the spirit worlds, where he will walk you through your own shamanic journey. Shamanic journeying is effective at healing traumas and restoring balance and wholeness with the desired result being a mended soul. Our work together is to connect with Spirit Guides to make changes in the ethereal realm that foster healing in this physical reality.

Resolve the disharmony of the soul. Find your way home.

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